Mami, It’s been a while. We have some catching up to do. If I let myself, I start getting overwhelmed by the fact that it’s been almost 13 years since I’ve seen you… but when I step outside of earthliness, I realize that I see you e v e r y w h e r … More An Open Letter to My Mom
It’s hard to understand how a day I have been anxiously anticipating for so long can catch me by such surprise. I feel pressed under the weight of thousands of words I want to say, but at the same time, I have none. I’m torn between questioning and rejoicing, remembering and forgetting, weeping and dancing. … More Dancing Shoes
The colors associated with a contusion towards the human body – a region of injured tissue or skin in which blood capillaries have been ruptured; a bruise. Ironically, also, the colors that are on both sides of this explosion of hatred and evil. The colors of two peoples who are both very much afraid. The … More Black and Blue
I so vividly remember the day we spent endless hours hauling furniture and bed spreads and pillows and pictures of home into this 11 x 15 room of mine. I remember crying, a lot. I remember the questions scattering through my head; “How in the world will I fit all of this into this room?”, … More The Boxes I Just Unpacked
When I began the process of enrolling in college and thus began the process of finding someone to live with, I primarily got one piece of rooming advice from everyone I spoke with: “Just don’t live with your best friend.” And if you’re going to be enrolling this fall, people will probably be telling you the same … More Never Room With Your Best Friend
“From noon to three, the whole earth was dark. Around mid-afternoon Jesus groaned out of the depths, crying loudly, “ Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? ” which means, “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?” Some bystanders who heard him said, “He’s calling for Elijah.” One of them ran and got a sponge soaked … More Saturday Silence
Suffering isn’t an obstacle to being used by God. It is an opportunity to be used like never before. -Levi Lusko You know it – some of you know it like the back of your hand. You’ve felt it – maybe for a moment, maybe for a lifetime. You’ve run from it. Some days you’ve … More Nearness
Dear Weary Heart, You’re sleep deprived. You’re sick of coffee. You stayed up all night going through your stupid flash cards, and you still didn’t make an A. You got everyone and their brother to edit your paper, and your teacher still didn’t like it. You have missed out on events, conversations, and friendships because … More Dear Weary Heart: For The College Students Who Aren’t Acing It
The most gracious and gentle question I have been asked in the past 6 months – during the long goodbye and now in my current grief – has been this, “What do you need?” I think the people that have asked this have been expecting practical answers. A hug. A knock-knock joke. A coffee date. But so far, it’s been something no … More More Time
(Originally published on Monday, October 5th) I have officially made it to the one week mark. Seven whole days. Seven days since my Cathy – my mentor, confidante, second mom, and best friend – entered the Land of the Living. In some ways it feels like it has been years, and in other ways, only … More Moments
Grace In Between 